Sunday, April 10

Hear You



She looked all of a naïve primary school girl
Bright eyed, face smiling, small built and hair that curl.
And she won’t listen
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

Her mother informed of her hearing impairment
Yet with her infectious nonchalant beam, she would befriend.
Some complained she spoke too loud
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

She was indifferent to the stares and whispers
She spoke innocently without filters.
She was blissfully unaware of the mute happiness she radiated
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

For such a fragile girl, she was surely well kempt  
Long hair tied tidily, scarf-secured to fight icy breeze and clothes ironed.
She stood proud and apart
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

Every morning the eyes would search this tiny being; wondering if she heard the bell
She would always be the last one to emerge out of her shell.
Being late never looked so graceful
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.


Once when asked, ‘If all was well?’
She flustered, shifted uncomfortably and mumbled a few valuable words to tell.
Being a witness of this bravery, a stone heart could melt
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

She didn’t turn up, one day
Search saw her shivering under a thick overweight blanket; the big teary eyes gave way.
This is how broken looked 
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

She laid her faith in bag full of medicines
Put all her effort to understand life beyond pills.
Failing miserably
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

Before she left she enquired with hopeful eyes,
“Will I be able to ‘hear’ if I did everything I learnt here?”
Eyes of a loner conveyed, “Be quiet; so you can hear You.”
She said, “Be loud, so I can hear You”.

Saturday, April 2

So Full


We were 4, I think,
You were such a nuisance, winning hearts with a wink.
Always annoying everyone;
You walked in like a teacher's favourite, oh-so-obedient.
Walking out, you sported a silly smile, messed hair and ruined uniform;
You never 'behaved'!
They attempted to discipline you time and again,
Your vivacious presence knew no refrain.
So free, so assured, so blissfully infectious, so easy to befriend;
Not knowing this was to end.


We were, 8ish I think
You lost something precious in a blink.
Your eyes that day, full of nothingness, were such a bother;
Making me helplessly wished I had something to offer.
You had to leave, with eyes so empty,
Don't remember if one showed sympathy or empathy.
‘Cause you felt so new; suddenly so old, so matured, so detached, so wise;
Did you truly lose something or found something nice?
You left.
Not knowing this was to end, too.


At 27 I wonder,
If you still wear that silly smile.
Or has the society's burden ceased the child inside?
Do you still chase those butterflies and frogs alike.
Or bury your head in a MacBook ignoring the ticking time?
Do you clean shave and dress for the occasion.
Or simply let your mood craft your own fashion?
Do you still colour your mouth with unhealthy cheap roadside gola.
Or have you learnt to behave and dine without indulging in some trivial hoopla?


Listen to the whisper…
You are a BLESSED child of the Universe
(I hope you know that.
Let me remind you anyway.)
You are a BLESSED child of the Universe.
Embrace the beginnings with love and joy
Knowing they will end.
Kiss the endings a happy and cherished good bye
Knowing they will end.
Fill your being with this whisper
Be so full that ‘nothingness’ will no longer bother.

-Shivani (in Love)